i'm a pretty lousy girlfriend and I dont think I deserve better.
tearing the lil fragile lil heart all over again is something so cruel that one can do.
and it's wrong.
something's wrong with me.
I've tried to change and maybe,not hard enough.
that's one disappointing thing to him.
this part of me,always had its ways around me and tear me down that i have to give up everytime.
feeling guilty all is not going to help anything.
If i cant handle this now,how are we going to survive in the future.
i'm lost.
well,most of the time I am lost.
finding the way back is not easy esp when you are not around with me.
I guess i'll be dead when the time comes.
when he had to leave.
I am one evil lousy
and i'm officially sicksicksicksick.no one to take care of me but myself
*note to self: drink more water,get more rest,
